I am convinced that everyone here hates sex. Why else would you wait until your mid twenties to get married and lose your virginity only to immediately get pregnant.
my parents’ method of control is to give me the absolute bare minimum (be it money or freedom or whatever) and tell me to “just ask if you want extra” so that I’d constantly have to negotiate every time I want more. I swear it’s so manipulative it’s almost kind of genius. this way they get to act like they’re being incredibly generous and reasonable without actually having to go through with it OR have to put up with me fighting with them, because they know that if I spend 24 years alternatively arguing and kissing their ass just to get the most basic trivial things then I’ll be too demoralized and exhausted to ask for anything decent, PLUS they get to smugly pat themselves on the back those few times those negotiations are in my favor. cool, I can come home at 7 30 that one time, thanks.
I know this blog is turning into the rants of a super emo angsty 13 year old girl right now but I never complained when I was 13 and I’m 24 now and I still get treated like this and I am seriously going crazy with anger and they know that if I get the smallest chance to leave then I will and it’s freaking them out. I just wish 18 year old me had realized that post graduation I would need the money a lot more than “job satisfaction” which I’m not gonna get either way.
ssiiiiiiighhhhhhhh if I eventually descend into madness at least it will be chronicled here.